I should die tonight. There's a maggot eating my insides, for I'm rotting like a forgotten fruit. It wants to come out. Only I can set it free.
I look at myself and I see no future. My hours drag themselves through the day, they are all mirrored. Tomorrow, another day, is yet the same. A plain reflection of its predecessors.
The maggot suffers from infinite boredom. It begs me to let it go. It talks to me and I give it no reply. What should I tell it? Calm down little maggot. The sun doesn't shines forever. Queitude is a gift from solitude. It must be earned, not given. I endure your eagerness to be free, you shall calm down and let me live.
In the darkness it crawls underneath my skin. It's trail is pure acid. But the maggot keeps me alive. Eating the rotten flesh, holding back the infection, but leaving holes everywhere. Open flesh that bleeds. I howl and moan as the moon visits me through my cracked windows. Me, the maggot, the moon and the darkness. Insatiable companions that cannot live without each other. They hate me as much as I love them. We feed on each other. Forever bound on this dance of decadence.
I should terminate myself tonight. Let the maggot see the world. The moon shine elsewhere. The darkness to be quit for it's voice is almost dead. They all would be better without thier rotten fruit. Theirs seedless apple.
Wrote this a few weeks ago. I'd like some feedback, please. English isn't my first language and I'm self taught. Also what do you homeslices think of my writing style in general? If I suck just say it! I won't get offended(I promise). Negative criticism leads to improvement, and that's my objective in here. Well that's it.