Hey guys and gals, could really use some help / advice.
I think I may be slightly obsessed with my Youtube channel. I literally can't sleep every night unless I upload something ... But it can't be half arsed, it HAS to be thought out, planned and look fantastic, rendered, uploaded and all credits filled in and watched back on Youtube before I can get any sleep.
I am making it my mission to keep uploading frequent, good content but I think it is going too far, I barely sleep and just can't shut off from it. I guess it stems from the anxiety that people will lose interest so I need to keep content coming. Has anybody else had this problem because I am starting to think it may be becoming a bit of an issue and I am not sure what to do.
I just can't relax anymore, I am constantly thinking about my next upload and next project, which I know is a good thing but I feel too that, in excess, it has the potential to be both harmful and mentally draining.
I have had a lot going on recently that I won't go into here and I feel like my projects and my Youtube and the positive responses are what are pulling me through and keeping me going (not to mention all of you here). It feels like I am filling my time with videos and projects and communicating with people and checking their work out partially because I want to, but also partially to mask or hide away from some more serious issues. Am I alone in this ?